This week I’m chatting about the second song on my album, ‘Who is Like You?’. This is one of the older songs on the album. I’ve been using this one in my worship leading for about a year. It came about out of a desire to explore the simplicity and profundity of a relationship with a triune God (OK, say that sentence fast 5 times!)
The longer I walk with God, the more I am awe struck by the knowledge of having the Creator of the Universe love me; the intimacy of salvation through Jesus and having the Holy Spirit in me as my constant companion and guide. So much so that words are completely and utterly inadequate!
All I know is that I will spend the rest of my life living from a desire to know and be known by this God. As I wrote and then recorded this song, I was continually struck by the bigness of God, the galaxies he has created, the smallness of me and the truth that he has chosen all of us as the ones he values above all else. Do I get a witness people! Am I the only one who is; on an ongoing basis, blown away by the Hope we have in Jesus and the incredible love that we can experience.
I spent a lot of my life subtly rejecting this gift of love and my new identity in Christ. I was convinced that I was, in essence, bad. It wasn’t just that I had sinned, but that I was ‘bad’. Now, I hear you saying, that’s true…all of us, as Bob Dylan so eloquently put it, came into the world ‘stone-cold dead’. (loving your quoting Bob there – props to you!) Yep, totally, but when we accept Jesus and his salvation we are a ‘new creation’. The old has gone and the new has come! (2 Corinthians 5:17)
My problem was that I thought that somehow those truths didn’t apply to me. So I primarily sought salvation through doing stuff that looked noble…and most of it was…but I still felt ‘bad’. I confessed my sins over and over and over…same ones…not new ones! It was exhausting!
It took many years to figure out that this was no way to live. I was lurching from good work to good work while feeling like a fraud and fearing others would discover my innate ‘badness’.
So, how did I get out of this icky state of being? Good question and I wish I had a single moment in time I could point to for the answer. The truth is that it was a process. Honestly, the first step came in falling apart…not fun…but necessary for me. I had to stop trying to save myself. I had to admit my need for love and to finally accept love from those around me…but mainly from God.
I also had to confront a stack of lies I was living under. Never forget that there is an enemy of our souls and he is dead scared of us! He knows that if we ever figure out how much we are loved, nothing will stop us from living out our calling. So, he lies…that’s pretty much all he has. He is called the Father of Lies and that is what he is.
As the lies were exposed, freedom began to replace them…and it is a glorious thing…I highly recommend it! After a few years (yes years) of destroying these lies, I was finally ready for the revelation of love…and oh my…the joy, the overwhelming joy at knowing I am loved for me, not for what I can do, just for being me, because I am made in the image of my beautiful God and he has done a fearful and wonderful job of it!
As I reflect though, you know the truly amazing part to me is that even while I was in my turmoil, my grief, my confusion…God still spoke to me and gave me a purpose and a destiny. As I emerged from my darkness I was able to take risks with it, but he had sown it in me from the beginning, not waiting for me to figure everything out…but giving me a HOPE! It brings me to tears…he loves us that much…every single one of us.
I pray that you will experience this beautiful God today and let him show you who you are to him.