So, lets talk about TRUST. Obviously not exhaustively. I’m no theologian and don’t claim to know it all, just the bits about my life…on that subject I’m becoming something of an expert! With that disclaimer out of the way, onwards…
Contrary to popular belief and possibly rumour, my life is not perfect, never has been, never will be. And I am OK with that (most of the time). Sometimes I feel like I’m on a grand adventure, sometimes it’s a full on fight, and at other times it’s just ”meh”. The important thing for me is not to airbrush the times that aren’t so crash hot.
That’s where this song comes in. I wrote TRUST during a time of discouragement. I had been plodding away at the album, on my own, in my spare bedroom and honestly, I felt like a fool. I’ve discovered that faith is nearly always spelt R.I.S.K. and I was becoming increasingly uncomfortable with the level of risk I was engaged in.
You know that feeling where you have climbed your way up to the top of the water slide (no mean feat when you are terrified of heights) and you’re perched at the top, looking into a long dark tunnel, wondering if you should have updated your Will. It felt something like that…if you add crocodile infested waters at the end!
Trust requires letting go. For me it meant letting go of agendas, of assumptions and of controlling the outcome (which is a futile endeavour anyway). I realised, as I had a quiet meltdown, that all I could do was what I believed was being asked of me. All I could do was fix my eyes on Jesus…and that was all that was required of me.
This song was my response to that time. I needed to speak the truth over my situation. The truth is that He loves me, he made me in His image and His plans for my life are to give me a Hope and a Future. In the end, this is our truth…God is FOR YOU…there are things out there that He made you to accomplish and if you don’t, the world will be a poorer place. It’s our part to look into His face and let Him guide our steps into those things that he pre-destined us for.
It’s all about TRUST!