I have an admission to make. It was difficult to release BELOVED to the world. I contemplated keeping it to myself on more than one occasion. “Why?” I hear you ask. Because it meant sharing what was a profound and intimate revelation of God in my life.
I shall attempt to explain. I had been happy with God as my Father, Jesus as my Saviour and the Holy Spirit as my Teacher and Guide…these aspects of God were comfortable to me…they fitted the image of God I had developed. Putting God in a box much?
The change was slow. The first step came when I asked God for a verse for the year. For those of you now squinting and saying “What?” I shall elaborate. I had been reading a great devotional by Graham Cooke called ‘The Nature of God’. In it he talked about asking God to reveal an aspect of His nature over the course of a year. He suggested asking God for a specific verse. I had never done anything like this before but I know God, He speaks to me, so I thought…OK!
It was a funny experience. I sat there and simply asked for a verse. The first thing that popped into my head was ‘Isaiah 54’. I thought – well that’s nice and general shall I risk disappointment and ask for more? Why not! So I asked for more, and then ‘verse 5’ popped into my head. I groaned, sure that this would be a verse on slaying Amalecites or the blood of bulls or something else equally nonsensical in the context of the assignment. Oh me of little faith!
Isaiah 54:5 “For your Maker is your husband – the Lord Almighty is his name –the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.” (NIV)
I may (or may not) have sworn at his point! I don’t know why I was so shocked. I asked, He answered. I spent the next year unpacking these aspects of His nature. In truth, I am still unpacking them and will be until and possibly after I meet Him face to face.
For me the first one was the kicker. So, he is my ‘husband’. But I’ve got one of those. I distinctly remember the day. There was a minister / vicar, other people, I said ‘I do’, I wore a dress that was too big as I dropped a dress size the week before the wedding through stress! Yep, got one of them!
Then it dawned. God was calling me to a new level of intimacy with Him. While I had always been close to God, I was all about serving Him…finding out His will (which usually involved some level of striving) and doing it. Being wooed by God was a whole other thing. For starters it implied that I was woo-worthy!
As you may have gleaned from my blogs thus far, seeing myself as woo-worthy was something of a challenge. While I had come to see myself and the world around me more through the prism of Heaven, going as far as seeing myself as woo-worthy in the eyes of the Almighty God was stretching to say the least.
I sat with this for a good six months. I walked and talked with God. I was silent before Him and I started to let him woo me. This is the atmosphere that bore BELOVED and it was my attempt to put into words the experience of being wooed by God.
My album, FOUND, is an attempt to share my journey of discovering more of who God is and who I am in him. Each song displays an aspect of the journey. BELOVED is all about intimacy. I am caught up in an eternal romance. The reality of the Lord of Heaven wanting to spend time with me is overwhelming and makes me love him more every day. I am my Beloved’s and he is mine. These are not empty words, they are why I press into his presence, why I love his Word, why I sing, why I love…period!
May you, dear reader, discover just how ‘woo-worthy’ you are to God!